I'm moving my assessments to the top of the page, and if you want more nuts and bolts, check below.
Yesterday was a tough day - I think the death of my friend hit me a bit more yesterday, especially now that it's been confirmed as a triple-homicide, with the housefire set as a cover-up. I am grateful they did not suffer in the fire, though getting shot to death is certainly not a peaceful end either. Dealing with this has been especially difficult for Kristi, who doesn't compartmentalize as well as I tend to (or would that just be me not being in touch with my emotions?). I know for certain Terry wouldn't want me to let his death stop or stall me - in fact he'd much more likely come back and yell at me from the grave and tell me to quit wasting time.
Added stress for the day, though certainly not on the same plane as death, was our washing machine breaking. Our old one died a few months ago, and we replaced it with a free model from someone getting rid of it, and it broke a suspension rod. So I just bit the bullet and bought a new one.
Finally, I was good on the diet til I ended up at the movies. Typical. And I'm not really on so far today either.
I had actually, even 30 minutes ago, considered putting this all on hold, or deleting this blog altogether. The feeling of failing is just wearing on me, and the excuses seem to be piling up. The spiritual side of me says this is just Satan trying to stop me. The secular side of me says it's just rationalization. I'm sure it's somewhere in between. The fact I'm typing now, though, says I'm not giving up. If that's my only win today, so be it.
Day 8 Review (Thursday, May 28)
Weight
Day 1 starting weight - 219.8
Day 2 weight - 220.8
Day 3 weight - 221.8 - clearly headed in the WRONG direction
Day 4 weight - 222.2 - let's not even talk about it.
Day 5 weight - 221.4
Day 6 weight - 218.6 - back in the right direction.
Day 7 weight - 218.8
Day 8 weight - 218.2 - weird to be stalled in this way - time to reduce the carbs even more
Day 9 weight - 219.0
6/16 GOAL - 200
Food
Steak, 2 pieces of King Soopers Chicken, Popcorn, Junior Mints
20 min on treadmill (2.2, 2.4, 2.6, 2.8), Chest Press (Progressive - 10 reps at 50, 55, 60, 65, 70, 75, 80, 85, 90, 95, 100, 105)
6/16 GOAL - 21 Workouts - workouts achieved - 2
Work Actions
Got booked for a speaking engagement in June
6/16 GOALS
- Podcast restarted
- Newsletter restarted
- Speak & Deliver Book created
- Sizzle Reel developed
- Website Revamped
- 20 speaking opportunities booked through end of year
- 2 more keynote coaching clients
- 20 blog posts in Speak & Deliver/Win Anyway (these don't count)
Dad Actions
None
6/16 GOALS
- ComicCon with Riley this weekend (5/23)
- Tomorrowland with some of the kids (5/27)
- Basketball
- Baseball
- Comic Book Store
Listened to Entrepreneur on Fire
Continued New Audiobook - Playing to Win
Spent time with Kristi - first to go buy a new washer, then to go see Ex Machina
6/16 GOALS
- Finish Mandela autobiography
- Finish two more audio books
- Continue consuming motivational/educational podcasts
Day 8 Commitments - Results
- work out
- write 2 chapter for my client
- coach said client - client cancelled (sick)
- Solar Speak TM - just couldn't get my mind into going
- 1 blog post
- bills
- work on new website
None.
#WinAnyway #Perflexativity
Pushing through some things is right. And pausing to deal with the effects of things can also be right. I was same way when my parents died (separately). My wife went to pieces, I was the very model of a modern Vulcan-like person. Prayers for you and his family. Hope there are leads and Justice is brought.
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